It’s been a long time since I have written on here. In fact, I pretty much forgot about this blog until a few months ago when someone mentioned it to me and asked why I stopped writing.
This blog was therapeutic for me in my first years after my separation. I was intentionally taking action to be the person I wanted to be, to live the life I wanted to live. I wrote openly – both in this blog, and even more so privately. I’ve had people tell me this blog reads like a journal. Perhaps I am too open. But this is who I am, and this is who I want to be!
Life can harden you. I’ve felt this within myself lately – it sometimes feel like the only way to get ahead is to emotionally detach yourself. And that very well may be true. But I don’t want to. I want to be soft. I want to be real. I want to hope. I want to believe in the good. Even if I never get what I could get by being emotionally withdrawn, this is something that is part of me… and important to me. Never lose yourself to get something. It’s just not worth it.
Nonetheless, this blog was a catalyst for me. I love to write and when I write, I see things in a different light. This blog enabled me to do that. In all it’s ‘rawness’
But the last few months I found myself falling into survival mode – working like a beast, spending time with my kids, spending time with my friends…but not really spending time on me!
So here I am again – I love to laugh, I love to have new adventures, to live new experiences, to write, to workout, to dance, to read. And this post is really my public acclimation that I am back. I purpose to laugh more, go on more adventures, intentionally try more new things, write more, dance again, workout more and read more. To prioritize the things that make me, me.